Hello I would like to find out about getting a reading; I do not have paypal and would like to know if you take money orders or checks. I would also like to know if you do sliding scale. I would just like to tell you a little bit ahead of time what my questions are and give a little background.

I would like to find out about an accident I had while a student at the University of Oregon (1981). I was coming out of class one day and was struck by  a speeding cyclist and was knocked to the ground, landing backward hard on my head. It was a strong, sudden impact. I was on my way somewhere, was not really looking, and was just deep in my own thoughts and minding my own business when I was just jolted. I had never been hit like this so out of the blue, I had always at least seen it coming. It was like everything was suspended, one minute I was in motion going from point A to point B the next I was down, and completely disoriented like I had been knocked out of my body. I know I was knocked unconscious I just don’t know for how long. It was everything just went black, like time stopped. I feel like I was just "out" not really aware of exactly where I was. Another psychic told me that I had a near death experience, that I 'went somewhere' but came back. But I did not come back the same. I went to the hospital and they said I just had a concussion but it felt like much stronger impact. My head was throbbing for months, like I had been completely jarred and had a constant migraine. I just did not feel like the same person after that, my system had been completely shattered. If I did have a near death experience at that time, why was I taken out while still in one piece? Head injuries are very serious, they can change your life in a minute and leave you as a different person, maybe someone you don’t want to be. I would like to know who this guy was, what was he doing there since he was not a student, and was there a karma there between us. I never did get his name.
 

I would just like to describe myself as I was in the years before the accident and see if you can tune in on that person and just tell me anything you see. I was a rather shy, sensitive, intelligent, creative rather eager young person with what I thought was a lot going for me. I did well in school, had a lot of friends, had a lot of interests and creative hobbies, was energetic and athletic, and just had a really full life. However I did have a lot of family trouble, my brother and father did not get along and were constantly fighting. My mother was caught in the middle and she died suddenly of a stroke when I was ten. It was very traumatic and affected me deeply. High school was a difficult transition I had gone to the same small Catholic grammar school with all the same people and it had been very familiar like another family. I knew a lot of people in my town and all the goings on so it was a safe and comfortable routine I had. The local public high school was much bigger than anything I had experienced so it took some getting used to, but I found my way and made some good friends and had some fun times, going to dances and parties and the beach with my friends. It was pretty fun and carefree at times. Graduation was confusing, I had been so attached to that way of life, growing up in that town and seeing my same friends every day was something I was very used to. I had enrolled at UC Santa Barbara and when I got there it was exciting but also overwhelming, it was huge and so new. It was scary like I’m sure it is for a lot of college students, being away from home for the first time. I should have gotten some counselling to heal ease some of my fears and anxieties about this new situation, it could have helped ease the transition into college  and a whole new way of life. I was just scared to give up the old, and thought I would never see my friends again and I did not like being away from them. I think I just needed some help to guide me through this change, and if I could have adapted to the new environment I could have found a whole new way of life and settled into college life. But I was scared and overwhelmed and there was really no one there to talk to who gave me any strong guidance, my mother was gone and my father was off doing his own thing. He was not really into being a parent, and did not have a strong role as far as guiding me and giving me advice, he just let me do my own thing, and he did not really support me. So I just made a hasty decision and returned home without really giving it and myself a fair shot. I should have just stuck it out, just worked through those times of fear and loneliness because all in all I think there were a lot of good things about going to college in Santa Barbara and it would have opened up a whole new world for me. Anyway I returned home and that’s when I went to University of Oregon and that’s where the accident happened. I would just like to know if you can tune in on this person and tell me what you see.
 

If this accident did not happen everything would have gone on as scheduled and it would just be completely different, but because of that accident I can hardly remember anything. I would also like to know if it is possible to look into future lifetimes and find out if they will be as a normal whole healthy person again, just like I started out this time and was like before the accident. Just if they will be as a normal regular in one piece human being. That is what I would really like to know.
    

Anyway if there is anything you can tell me about this situation I would appreciate it. Can you let me know if you can do a reading on this? Thanks a lot.

Maura, USA

Dear Maura,

Thank you for your long email-I hope you felt marginally better for writing it. I strongly believe that we need to write down our thoughts and feelings, as this gives our mind and soul a way of processing the information-including our feelings. This can be very healing for the soul.

I tuned into the man, but did not get information. 'The door was closed' as it were, which indicates to me that it is time for you to move forward, and to stop thinking about what happened in the past.

Form the outset, and from experience and understanding of the soul and spirituality, I can tell you this:

• Nothing happens without the permission of the soul (consciously or unconsciously).
• And that no one dies before their time.

You are here; on some level you 'approved' this. I believe with hind site, once you have moved forward, you would be able to put this experience in perspective. Only then, you would be able to understand why-if you need to then.

Understanding something, does not necessarily help us move forward, only conscious decision to do so would! Therein lies your spiritual growth and the lesson to learn which is to move forward, correcting what you wanted to in your life.

My feelings are that your experience happened to allow you to value life, to live without fear appreciating every moment with joy, to get rid of your shyness feeling alone, etc., and explore missed opportunities, and live in the now. The slate is now clean, only you can decide how to move forward- it is time you do so Maura!

If your accident was because of karmic agreement or dues, then the karma is done, and again the slate is clean. So start your life again now, writing your script as you wish it to be from now on. The past is the past. We live in the now (which in turn dictates how we forge our future.)

By living in the now, you allow your Soul to grow, not by holding on to the need to understand the past.

Now, about near death experiences, I have conducted many podcast interviews with Dr. PMH Atwater, describing what they are and how one feels. So please listen to them, (and I urge you to read her books on the subject) on www.psychicpodcasts.com all you have to do is click on the link, and allow few seconds for the file to be down loaded. Or if you have iTunes, you can down load directly to MP3 player. Go to Podcasts once in iTunes shop, search for Psychic, and my podcasts will come up. Having mentioned that, I would like to add, there is no reason why the next life can’t be an even better one, especially if you allow yourself to grow in this one. Growth is ‘accumulative’: the more we learn in this life, the better equipped we are coming back! I would suggest that you think about Shamanic healing, this would help you heal on a deeper soul level too.

Hope this helps.

If you still wish for a reading, please check Online Booking for more information. I can accept postal orders or USA Checks, but you have to add $20, as I would have to pay that fee to my bank.

Love, light and healing

Sahar